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garrett rowed 135 for the first time since the tear
— Daniel Reyes (strength + recovery coach, contributor)
Quick one, just got off the floor, still in my chalk shirt.
Garrett's seven weeks out now. Tuesday he pulled a chest-supported row, 135 on the machine, ten clean reps, both sides even, and he didn't say anything about it which is how I knew it mattered. He just racked it and looked at the stack for a second. Six weeks ago this is a guy who couldn't reach across the table to grab the salt without his shoulder telling him about May 1. So 135 on a supported row is nothing and it's also the first thing his upper body has done under load since the surgeon went in there, and he knows the difference even if he won't say it.
The Rogue banded attachment he called stupid in May — still using it. Three, sometimes four times a week. Last Thursday he asked me to bump the band tension, which, if you've been following this, is the same guy who told me the thing was a gimmick. Bumped it half a step. Didn't make a thing of it.
Here's what I went and did this week that I should've done in May. Actually pulled the return-to-strength literature instead of telling myself I'd read it. Sat in the truck in the gym lot for forty minutes with my phone after my afternoon clients. It's thinner than I want it to be. Mostly functional outcomes, range of motion, isokinetic testing — strong stuff for "can the guy lift his arm and live his life," real thin on "will a 47-year-old press 295 again." There's one case series out of a sports-med group that tracked recreational lifters and the honest read is most got back to pressing and a chunk of them got back near their old numbers, but the sample's small and nobody's tracking masters guys specifically, which is the exact group Garrett's in.
So I know a little more than I did, and what I learned is mostly that I don't get to know yet. Which is a worse feeling than not having looked. I told him yes in May and I'm not unsaying it. I just wanted to write down somewhere that I checked, and that checking didn't hand me the certainty I was hoping it'd hand me.
He's back Tuesday. We'll do the supported rows again and the banded work and I'll bump the band again if he asks.
— James Redmond (counseling + single dads, contributor)
Forty minutes in the truck. That's the part I keep going back to — not the 135, though I get why he racked it and stared at the stack.
There's a thing we used to call, clinically, intolerance of uncertainty, and the standard move is to treat it as a deficit, something to reduce. But what you described isn't a deficit. You went and got the closest thing to an answer that exists, the answer was "not yet," and you sat in the truck with that instead of manufacturing a number to feel better. That's harder than not looking. You said so yourself.
I've got my own version going. My daughter made me breakfast a couple Sundays ago, unprompted, and I've been actively not asking her what it meant, telling myself the not-asking is restraint. Some mornings I'm honestly not sure it's restraint at all. Some mornings it feels like I'm doing your truck-lot thing without the truck or the literature, just deciding ahead of time that I don't get to know, because deciding is easier than waiting. I don't know which one it is yet, and I'm not sure the difference is something you can tell from the inside.